Well...I want to start off with this...
I am not afraid of growing older. I embrace it, it is a goal to grow older and experience what life is. learn what I can when I can and be happy as much of my life as possible.
I was apprehensive about what was going to happen tonight, because I didn't know to be honest what was going to happen. I know a lot of people who have had huge parties on their 18th...but I am not one for parties. People have also said that their brother or fathers hire hookers for their 18th...yet another thing I do not want. and some say that it is just another day...nothing to be overly joyous about. I am for the last one.
My family is under financial stress right now and I did not expect anything, from anyone. there were only 4 people at my party tonight. My brother, my mother, my father and myself.I was anticipating my Sister-in-law coming over as well but my brother was mad at her and left w/o her. ( he needs to work on his social issues to be honest) but...since I didn't expect anything from anyone I was going to give something to everyone. Advice giving comes naturally to me...this is what I was going to say. (note pass-tense)
To Dad: The unspoken word is the word that speaks for the spoken words. You do not need to speak all the time to be heard.
To Mom: Trying things without plan is more often than not how to succeed, not the carefully planed out way.
To Brother: You actions are always cherished to me, and no matter what, I would do what you asked because I trust you over all.
To Sister-in-law: Though it may not see thins way to you now...you are the addition to this family, and you will always be loved for who you are and not for what you bring to the table.
I love my brother more than any family member. he is the one who I look up to and the one I trust. even though he wants me to drink (he loves drinking. he is not a drunk. responsibility is Key.)
I do not tell my family about what I feel, how I think, or what do. I've always kept what I am to myself and not really told anyone about it. I feel like everyone is judging me (in my family).
I did not intend what I was going to say as an insult to my family, though one is clearly better than the others. I thought that it would be best to tell everyone separately so as to not hurt anyone's feelings, even if that was not my intention.
I feel bad -kind of- because my family feels the need to get me something on my birthday even though we have financial problems. I tried to tell everyone that I am fine with people not getting me anything this year because I do not want to put a dent into an already clearly dented surface...
I was surprised that I got something tonight...even if it wasn't much. I got a pair of clothes (which I did need badly). I do not refuse gifts for I do not wish to hurt peoples feelings. when my brother left he said "I do feel bad about not getting anything for you. I did not want you to go without a present on your 18th." and I did not get to say what I wanted due to problems. and my mother being present.
But...I just wanted to say that I did have a good Birthday, and this post is not to ask for anything, I just needed to tell someone because no one seems willing to listen. :P maybe this should go in the rant forum... :laugh:
Thank you in advanced for what ever replies do come in if I do not respond in a quick manner. I've tried to post this 3 times but each time I keep thinking it's not somethign I should post. so I decided to just post it and see what happens. :)
happy birthday kiddo. :cake: :hbd:
:hbd: :cake: Happy Birthday Tyler!!
It sounds like a fairly pleasant evening with family, who could ask for more?
Sorry I haven't been around for a bit but I've been fighting sinuses for 2 weeks now :sook: and between working and sleeping I haven't been online much.